1.1.2009

Sad Day . 3.02am . Morning .............
I drink another tin of calberg .... ....
this few day .... i had been arguing with my gf ....
she told me in chinese .... why you even a little freedom you also cant give me ??
You really dun thrust me ??
NOt i not thrust in her .... is she making me not so important to her ....



Talk bout new year eve .... i hav no car .... den i not dare to date her ... coz she ni to drive so far frm BM .... then she said today i dun wna go out d ... i feel disappointed ..... but i told my self maybe she tipu me wan give me surprise ..... but after i bek to my hostel .... i cant c her .... NVM ... i said this new year we celebrate at home ....but sooner she tell me tat she will goin autocity to9 with her cousin ..... she tot me tat drive to penang is far .... how bout autocity not far too meh ?? maybe penang is far .... but only tis year she can celebrate new year wif me ..... the continue 4 year she cant celebrate wif me coz she is going to taiwan for 4 year .... so why she cant come to penang celebrate this last New Year wif me .... but everythin just fine .... i ok act ......


At nite ..... i ask her to call me at 12am ..... coz my fon out of credit canot call .... so she called me just now ....v talk ... n greed hapi new year to each other too .... then she said after go bek will call me ..... so i wait until 1.00am .... then she said sms me said to me act wat are you waiting for my call ??i feel weird is she said to me tat i wil call u wen i bek home ..... (in fon call) .... i ask her the movie nice or not she answer nice ..... i ask her the dog cute or not .... she answer cute .... then keep quiet d .... dun wan talk ... you noe this make me feel so sad .... i just wan you to acc me ... talk wif me so simple .....


But .... for she ... im the one who making all this annoying thing to her .... but she never think that is she making this all happened ...... why why why .......
Last word she mention if i keep on do this annoying thing , for sure that this relationship wont be long last ..... .......i dun like this feeling tat why i tel , that why i voice out .... sometime i try to enter her heart .... to see / understand wat is she thinking ..... but she said is hard to tel you .... i duno how to tel you .... this all word .... saying that i canot entering your heart .... you cant make me step further to understand you n know what are you thinking ..... i really duno how to continue to write this ..... Izit my wrong ? Izit i purposely make us feel unhapi ......
I ALSO DUNO....